Thursday, December 20, 2007

Strange Looks

If you ever want to get strange looks in a supermarket, buy 48 condoms and about £10 worth of sweets - was a very funny shopping trip!!!

Wednesday, December 19, 2007

Taking a time out

Life is such a funny thing. I find it so easy to get wrapped up in my life, that I get annoyed and fed up by the simplest of things, like the below post - pointless and futile but still the instant reaction is at least true, real and nothing more.

When these moments happen, I get to a point when I get so self involved, I start to fret about the most stupid of things, about people and their perceptions of me, worrying about the state of cupboards or obsessing about that noise in my car, which I swear wasn't there before - very selfish, stupid little things which get in your brain and start to whirl like the waltzers.
Once I reach this height, somehow something takes hold of me and I stop the ride and get off, this is easier said than done, after getting so wound up and in a state, it's hard to stop thinking in the manner I did before, but for sanities state I have to learn. If only I could realise I was in the state before it gets really bad, now that would be a trick.

This can be done in many ways: having a long hard talk to yourself (mine always end in conflict).
Walking about observing the smallest, most minute things, like blades of grass and realising how incredible and beautiful this world is (does work well but when you're in such a state, this is a long process of constant relapses).
But I find that reading one of Paulo Coelho's books normally does the trick. A lot of his books are based on faith in God and the bigger picture, etc. I believe in the bigger picture but am always unsure about the God issue. I was raised as a Catholic and I think religion is a good idea to a point, because it's given people a guide to trying to be a better person. I also think it's bad, (one example, not all) as there are to many people who take what it says literally (no pinch of salt required) and there should always be a pinch of salt, it's also in some retrospects rather dated.

But regardless of that, Mr Coelho's books always make me feel that my worrying and chaos in my head is so pointless, life will continue after I'm gone, so as long as I try to life it the best I can, be good to others, repent the bad and try and spend as much time enjoying it, what's to worry about. Things will happen without my influence and sometimes with it, so let it get on with it and I shall get on with having fun and trying to make sure my friends and family do also.

So I thank Paulo for always pulling me out of my self-obsessed moods of hepped up craziness.

Friday, December 07, 2007

Christmas, Bah Humbug!

Apparently it's Christmas in a few weeks?! So-what?

So far, I'm not in the mood at all. I have bought some presents already, due to my brother and his girlfriend going away and also due to my other brother being impatient.
I've a little collection of presents left and I'm sat here thinking I should get off my arse and go and get the rest of the presents, before I end up spending the money on myself and my wardrobe. Instead I'm still here, writing this, thinking instead of going shopping I could always finish wall papering my room or maybe do some more cleaning but I know I've got to give in and get them.

I guess there are a few points to my lack of Christmas spirit. I'm having Christmas with my friends this year, not my family. It's been a few years since I had a fantastic Christmas, the last one being at an ex's family with his housemates, as we all got very merry and the food was amazing. Or maybe the fact that I'm normally driving, causes me to not be able to get in the Christmas spirit, who knows?! Plus, it's been yonks since we had a proper large family Christmas, no nephews, or family friends joining us, which in my eyes is what it's supposed to be about.
Plus it's not cold enough, what is that about? Let's move it to February, when it actually does snow.

Oh well, I'm going to give in shortly, maybe if I listen to Christmas songs on my iPod, I may get in the mood.

If anyone sees some Christmas spirit, could they try and catch it for me please.